Our Stories are Re-writing Themselves. Can you feel it?

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I’ve been feeling it in my very bones, in my cells – and most deliciously, in my heart. Honestly, for the last 9 months or so, it’s felt like I was closing my heart because I found my tolerance for certain things was ebbing fast. Thoughts around being nicer, more compassionate, more patient, more loving, …. would come up, but it was as if a river rushed in and carried them away as soon as they did. I spent a lot of time by myself because of it.

Now I see that I wasn’t closing or hardening my heart, I was emptying it of my old patterns of over responsibility that didn’t serve me or the world.

Are you feeling anything similar?

I didn’t seek out this change of heart or work to make it happen, it just evolved.

Having said that, I do acknowledge that I have been wanting, hungering for, waiting for a change that I could sense was hovering near the edge of my web. And for the first time in a very long time I sensed that there was nothing I could do to make it happen. Working “hard” at things is something else I just don’t seem to have much tolerance for anymore. What a relief that is! I’d been feeling so old and now I feel new energies and a delightful sense of vitality moving through me.

Do you find yourself letting go of “putting your nose to the grinding stone’? (What a terrible image that expression calls forth!)

Lorna Bevan of Hare in the Moon Astrology writes:
“… your soul clock is reminding you that it’s time. And isn’t it interesting , liberating yet strange to feel yourself transforming from the inside out without working on yourself? That’s right – you don’t need to do anything, or buy a self-help book or start a practice with rules or pay someone else to tell you what you need. Nothing is wrong, nothing is missing – this is what conscious evolution looks and feels like.”

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I feel uncertain moments as I navigate this new field, which asks me to use new tools. But it’s also exciting and I’m enjoying the possibilities.

What new possibilities are you discovering in your field?

 

 

Please – Like, share, follow, comment and forward to friends and colleagues. Head shot (2)I’m Coleen Rhalena Renee, spiritual healer and teacher. I appreciate you helping me pass along these insights, teachings and thoughts to ponder.  I’m deeply grateful to all my readers and thank you for your support and for the work you do to heal the world and celebrate its beauty. 

If you need assistance in walking your path visit my website and considering working with me, if what I offer resonates with you. Many blessings, ~ Coleen

 

3-Steps to Spring Cleaning that Will Change Your Life

My mother was always big on spring cleaning. She’d usually declared it time for this annual ritual during our spring break from school. Yes, as you can imagine, this announcement was met with groans from me and my siblings. But Mom made it relatively fun. We got to sleep in, and the work itself was down with lots of singing and story – our family’s “spoonful of sugar” for those tasks we weren’t thrilled with.

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As an adult, I moved my personal spring cleaning ritual to earlier in the year. I do it when the season changes after the long winter months. It’s when I notice the birds singing, the crocuses popping up through the snow and that shift in the air telling me that spring is on its way. I do it when I cannot resist opening the windows and letting fresh air blow through the house.

When we’re living in times like these, when it seems like every week some major shift has happened, I do a second clearing. For me, Spring Cleaning is a spiritual practice that opens the way for new life, new opportunities, new perspective. This year, I extended my spring cleaning to clearing out old financial and business files. You see, I feel a new breeze wanting to move through those aspects of my life.

How do I make spring cleaning a spiritual practice that changes my life on every level? I have a three step process.

Step One – Gratitude for what is.

Like in all rituals, preparation is essential. Setting the frame of your intention is critical. As I’m gathering supplies and making a list of what I want to accomplish, I stay in a gratitude frame of mind. I express my gratitude that I have a home, furniture, window treatments, collectibles, family heirlooms, … that need to be attended to. I remind myself that clearing away will allow the new and fresh to enter my life. I sing – or put on my favorite music or inspirational program.

I make a pact with myself to avoid any self recrimination about the state of things. If I catch myself in ‘should haves’, I stop immediately and re-center in gratitude.

Step Two – Using the Physical to Clear the Emotional, Mental and Spiritual 

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As I physically clear away dust, clutter and staleness – I consider what I might need to clear away mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I let the physical acts of dusting, scrubbing and sweeping be the vehicles for letting go on all levels. I do this in lots of little ways. Basically, I think about different aspects of my life while I’m doing the physical tasks. For example, as I’m deep cleaning the kitchen (the place where I cook for myself) I ask how I’m feeding myself in other ways and if any change needs to occur. I usually discover that I’m working too much and I make decisions on what I can let go of. It’s amazing how helpful this process is and how naturally the kitchen supplies me with ways to work this out. As I’m doing easy jobs like wiping down the light switches, easy things to let go of around work come to mind. When I’m using all my strength to move the refrigerator and clean behind it, I find myself focusing on any “mountain” of resistance in my work. The emotion of that resistance helps fuel my strength to move the refrigerator. The areas behind and under the refrigerator often become the hidden things that need to be cleared up and let go of. As I wipe the dust and dirt away physically, I release my resistance mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

Just let your house become a metaphor or symbol of your current life – and let it speak to you. As you’re washing windows, ask what you aren’t able to see in your life. As you’re dusting the book shelves, notice what titles grab your attention and ask why.

Avoid over analyzing in this process. Just see what emerges.  I like to keep a notebook handy in case I receive a really important insight that I want to be sure to remember. I also tend to move through the house in a counter clockwise direction – the direction of undoing.

Step Three: Opening, Blessings and Celebration

When you’re done with the clearing and cleaning tasks, don’t stop there. This is the moment to bless the new, open to what’s coming and celebrate your achievement. I do this after every room and then when the entire house is complete. What does it look like?

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Often, quite simply, I take a moment to look at the fresh new space and just enjoy it. I might treat myself with a cuppa tea or a delicious snack while I think of what new things might happen in this space and in my life. I might promise to use my grandmother’s teapot more often and remember how dear she was to me. Or, I might give myself permission (and a commitment) to read that juicy novel after dinner instead of finding ways to work more.

When the entire house is complete, I walk through it (in a clockwise direction) blessing each space, setting my intentions for the season ahead and speaking my gratitude for all that is and all this is coming. This is often the time that I open all the windows as a sign

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to the universe that I am open to what new things will serve me. I might put flowers around the house and/or light candles. I might dance through the house in celebration. Depending on my mood, I then snuggle up with a good book or movie and enjoy being in my home – or, I invite friends over for tea or dinner to help me bless the space.

Why do these three steps work so powerfully? Creating space, movement and/or flow in one area of your life opens all the other areas to the same energies. Yesterday, I spring cleaned my financials and business. This morning I was offered an opportunity to double my income in a way that feels easy and filled with grace. Worry left me and my heart sang!

If you have questions or comments about this process, let me know. I’d love to hear from you!

Please – Like, share, follow, comment and forward to friends and colleagues. I’m ColeenHead shot Rhalena Renee  – a spiritual healer and teacher. I appreciate you helping me pass along these insights, teachings and thoughts to ponder.  I’m deeply grateful to all my readers and thank you for your support and for the work you do to heal the world and celebrate its beauty. 

If you need assistance in walking your path visit my website and considering working with me if what I offer resonates with you.

Many blessings, ~ Coleen

What Do You Want? 3 Ways to Listen to Your Heart

Last weekend, on three separate occasions, I was asked, “What do you want?” In each case, it was conversational, but I have this agreement about three times. When Spirit wants to get my attention, I’m offered something three times. And I acknowledge that each time the question was asked last weekend, I could feel something powerful beneath it. I couldn’t just give a flip or casual answer. I actually got tongue tied, which is unusual for me.

After the social events of the weekend and my house guests left, I asked myself, “What do you want?” In my experience there are three things one must do with a question like this.

#1 Get Quiet. Questions that have a tug and seem to twinkle with power must be considered in a place of quiet. For me, that means going to my room, going out to a quiet place on the land, or taking a long drive through a beautiful landscape. Phone is off, to-do list is put away. I ask the question and simply listen to who/what wants my attention.

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I often receive guides to help me: an eagle flying next to me on the road; a river singing me songs of healing; an ancestor or angel whispering wisdom. Whether I’m half dreaming in my room, wading in a river, or speeding along on the road, much is happening around me. Some of it speaks to my question, some doesn’t.

#2 Notice What Has a ChargeAs I consider my question, I do so with a sense of detachment. I use a soft focus and very wide periphery (wide angle vision) that allows me to sense a lot. My task is to notice what has a charge; what shines, tingles, vibrates interestingly,… It’s like when a friend gives you a choice of three movies to go see. As he list the movies, you hear each title. And if you listen closely, you can hear which one(s) he truly wants to see because he speaks those titles with a little something extra in his voice – a charge. He might say it a little softer, louder, faster,… Something about it stands out and gets your attention.

I might see dozens of birds on my journey, but only one, the eagle, seems to connect with me, as if giving me a message. Lots of scenes and stories might flit through my mind, but something about Auntie’s words on her front porch swing when I was five seem to echo in my head. Many side roads might appear on my journey, but I only take the ones that I can feel pulling at my solar plexus. Everything else on my quest may be beautiful, something to explore for another day even, but I only attend to what has a charge.

#3 Be Patient and Don’t Grasp at Answers. I’ve asked my question, gone to a quiet place and noticed what has a charge. It can be quite tempting now to try to just make a meal out of whatever I’ve gathered. But I know from experience, it is best to simply be patient and wait for the alchemy to happen. A question like this might take days, weeks, months, even years to answer. Sometimes I go for a drive and come home with an answer. More often, I receive important guidance, messages, insights and possibilities, but no real answer. These kinds of questions are not for the microwave, they’re more the crock pot kind of meal. These questions need to be carried for awhile until something settles firmly in your place of knowing.

Too often, we ask questions and only listen to our head. We ask them with the pressure of getting it right, or at least answering quickly. To take action on such answers is usually a waste of time and resources.

These questions must be taken to our hearts; that’s where the wisdom lies. The heart understands that without the pressure of performing or hurrying – a deeper, more true and significantly more satisfying answer will emerge – and it will do so in right timing.

Do I have an answer? I have the beginning of an answer. In the quiet, I noticed how many things in my life are just noise: busywork, other people’s expectations, my fears and doubts. I’ve cleared much of that away, creating space for what I want to land. A client shared that she’s tired of trying to impress and of people trying to impress her; she just wants to know who people are and what they’re doing. When she said this, I felt a cleansing wind move through and blow away all the pressure I’ve been feeling lately to create sound bites and marketing platforms. And then it happened.

I came to understand the question in a new way. I have spent over two decades asking what the world wants from me and willingly offering my gifts and talents to that need.  It worked. But it really doesn’t sustain me anymore. Now, I must ask, “What do I want?”

My answer is that when I find the answer, I will magnetize the work and people that resonate with what makes my heart happy. Yeah, that’s what I want! I can feel my heart’s truth emerging. I also feel an incredible trust growing; a trust that when I’m in deep resonance with what I want, I will be offering what the world needs from me.

 

Please – Like, share, follow, comment and forward to friends and colleagues. I’m Coleen Rhalena Renee  – a spiritual healer and teacher. I appreciate you helping me pass along these insights, teachings and thoughts to ponder.  I’m deeply grateful to all my readers and thank you for your support and for the work you do to heal the world and celebrate its beauty. 

If you need assistance in walking your path visit my website and considering working with me if what I offer resonates with you. Many blessings, ~ Coleen

Do You Appreciate the Joys of the Senses?

Mama Earth titillates us with sweet scented air; budding trees that break into blossom; the song of returning birds and mamas calling to their young; the feel of warm sun on our skin; and, the unforgettable taste of fresh greens.

The sensual nature of May goes on and on; the sweet smell of fresh cut grass, the pungent scent of freshly turned earth, the cool feel of this soil as you plant seeds, the neighborly sounds of the local Farmer’s Market, …

In Celtic tradition, May Day – or Beltane – is the beginning of summer. Summer Solstice is the height and midpoint of the summer season. May Day celebrates the increasing power of the sun and his ever growing ability to penetrate the earth in the sacred union that brings us life. The Maypole is seated deep into the earth and with dance and song, we weave our intentions and desires for the season ahead. Our ribbons of desire woven around the pole provide a visual symbol for what we hope to create and harvest.

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These days, most people don’t literally dance around the Maypole. However, we don’t resist the call of Mama Earth to come out and play. We find ourselves drawn to what’s happening all around us. Sap is rising in the trees – which gently blossom, promising us delicious fruit very soon. Enlivening energy rises also within us; love is in the air, hope blossoms, we find excuses to get out – even if that only means taking our laptop out on the deck or squeezing in a walk during lunch.

I invite you all to consciously and joyfully enter the dance of May. Stop and smell the lilacs, tulips, camellias. Gather the edible greens in your yard and truly let yourself notice how your body welcomes their fresh nutrients. Or, just pay attention when you rub lotion into your skin. Savor the first sip or tea or coffee in the morning. Go to a Farmer’s Market.

Beltane is traditionally celebrated on May 1st. Lunar Beltane is on April 29th this year, which is also the full moon in Scorpio. Scorpio also calls to our sensual natures. If you get a chance, dance in the moonlight and enjoy the sensation of a moon bath. (Moon bathing is pretty much the same as sun bathing open to the light and enjoy!)

May literally calls us to our senses. Answer the call and see what happens!

Please – Like, share, follow, comment and forward to friends and colleagues. I’m Coleen Head shotRhalena Renee  – a spiritual healer and teacher. I appreciate you helping me pass along these insights, teachings and thoughts to ponder.  I’m deeply grateful to all my readers and thank you for your support and for the work you do to heal the world and celebrate its beauty. 

If you need assistance in walking your path visit my website and considering working with me if what I offer resonates with you. Many blessings, ~ Coleen

5 Ways Ancient Stories Speak to Us Across Time?

Can a tech savvy, fast paced world find any relevance in ancient stories?

If the number of movies and television shows, which include mythical themes, are any indication – the answer is yes! We’ve come to a place where our tech brains are hungering for heart context.

Enter eternal myths.

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Thor and Wonder Woman (the Amazon) may be stepping into modern day life on screen, but they – along with all the other gods, goddesses, and elemental beings – are also stepping into our lives and activating aspects of our psyches that have been sleeping. Like the “Librarians” we protect a vast treasure of ancient knowledge. We house this treasure in our psyches and when new strategies, new ideas, new perspectives are needed, we need only tap into them.

These eternal myths are called archetypes. We recognize them immediately, often having a strong emotional response to them. When we feel such emotion, it’s wise to pay attention; that archetype wants to be activated in your life.

When the outer world becomes chaotic and uncertain, these archetypes call to us. They are not new, but they offer new perspective. How do they call us? Here are 5 ways:

#1. We Meet Someone Who is Very Different. We might have a strong attraction to this person, or even a strong desire to run from them. Something about them stirs something within us. We must respond. Open your eyes and heart to what this person might have to teach you. They are a living embodiment of an archetype you would do well to activate in yourself (in big or small ways). Note, this archetype might show up in an imbalanced way in order to teach you how not to approach the gifts they carry. For example, if you need to learn to use your voice and speak your truth, you might meet someone who does that in a strong and honorable way as well as meeting someone who carelessly hurts those around her with her words. Both have something to teach you as you open to this new way of walking in your life.

#2. We Become Lost. What we’ve always done just doesn’t seem to work anymore. We might feel bored, frustrated, and/or impotent. Usually this is because the archetypes we’ve relied on simply do not carry the energies needed for our current situations. This can show up as empty nest syndrome, a midlife crisis, a desire to walk away from everything, or a stubborn grasping onto what has always been. Beware. Do not rush to blame those around you. Instead, look for opportunities to try something new. Someone or something very different might be walking into your world. A perfect example of this is the mother whose pre-teens don’t need her as much. The strong mother archetype within her can become stymied and over controlling or depressed because she is no longer needed. This is a wonderful time for her to open to new aspects of herself or revive parts of herself she let go of when she became a mother.

#3. The Unexpected Lands in our Lap. This may be a situation where you literally get lost. You take the wrong turn and end up where you never knew you wanted to be. It can also look like losing a job, a partner, a friend – something that turns your world on it ears. This doesn’t have to be unpleasant. You might win a trip that takes you to a land that opens your heart. You might see a sign on the side of a bus that wakes you to an unknown passion. Following these unexpected leads can introduce you to the archetype you most need. I am not alone in recognizing that a serious injury became a great blessing because it introduced me to something new, and simply gave me time out of my ordinary schedule to hear what my heart was longing for.

#4. A Movie Grabs Us and Won’t Let us Go.  You’ve probably experienced watching a moving and unaccountably feeling connected to a character. The character seems to follow you home, appears in your dreams, shows up in conversations. Everywhere you go, there’s some reminder of this character. Pay attention, the archetype is greeting you and asking you to play. If you find yourself saying, “I wish I could be like that,” know that you can. It might look like a different version, but answer the call! This might show up in a strong connection to a particular actor. For example, I will watch almost anything that Sandra Bullock is in. Her characters tend to be strong, vulnerable and deeply caring. Like me, they often struggle with the balance of carrying all three. 

#5. A Book Jumps Off the Shelf. I’ve heard so many clients share that a book seemed to jump off the shelf and it was just what they needed. Yep, this happens. Sometimes it’s a book you bought years ago and never read. Follow these occurrences, they are not random. Something in you is calling to something in it. Be adventurous, see what it is. Note that often we have a sense of what we will need in the future. Those unread books or unopened art kits need not be a source of self chastisement; the archetype within knew his/her time was coming. Good on you for listening!

These are just a few common ways that our inner archetypes use to get our attention. These experiences wake us up, get us to look at things in new ways and gather from deep within us new strategies for living our lives. Here’s the kicker: you have to live in real life. Avoid getting lost in the movie, book, trip, etc. Instead of imagining what you might do, actually do it. Give your friends and family something to talk about!

Please – Like, share, follow, comment and forward to friends and colleagues. I’m Coleen Rhalena Renee  – a spiritual healer and teacher. I appreciate you helping me pass along these insights, teachings and thoughts to ponder.  I’m deeply grateful to all my readers and thank you for your support and for the work you do to heal the world and celebrate its beauty. 

If you need assistance in walking your path visit my website and considering working with me if what I offer resonates with you. Many blessings, ~ Coleen

 

 

How Goes Your Flow?

Life can make us feel constipated. And sometimes, things can feel like their flowing out of control. I’ve had days (particularly as I’ve gotten older) where I feel dried up – then times when suddenly it seems the dry season is over and inspiration rains upon me. This leaves me feeling juicy and sensual and vibrant.

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As a writer I experience these different flows in terms of writer’s block or, at the other end of the spectrum, as if I am moving in an endless dance with my muse. And it’s not just about the way I feel. Sometimes the muse refuses to dance, or the book I’m writing insists on being left alone. I’ve been through it enough times that I’ve begun to trust in the different ways of flowing.

For example, I remember when I was writing my first novel I’d look up from my computer and notice dishes piled in the sink and a room that looked like a midden heap with things piled and strewn around. I’d wonder who made this mess? Then I’d realize that I’d been writing for several days solid. It felt great! I’d scroll through my story and be amazed at how much I’d written. I’d been transported to a different realm where only the muse, the story and I were players. I must have eaten and moved about my home, but I wasn’t really aware of any of that.

In these moments, the biggest part of me wanted to get back to that place of inspired writing and keep going.  I’d push myself to get back to that place of productivity, that sweet nirvana. But like as not, the muse would refuse to show up or the story would insist on being left to simmer. After a few times of making myself write, I learned that it was a waste of time. The writing was never good and I almost always ended up deleting it entirely.

I soon discovered that the sweet nirvana was not a passing thing. I was able to find it rather consistently – even if it wasn’t always on my time table. So I stopped grabbing for it. When I did find it and then came back to the “real” world, I’d eat, shower, nap and then clean the house. It felt pretty good to clear away the debris of my writing stint and to move my body. I began to treasure the relief of letting go of the muse and the story; the next dance would come soon enough and I’d move again to the rhythm of the work.

Lately, I’ve been challenged in my everyday life around flow. My body insisted that I slow down and listen more closely to it. In fact, I couldn’t really settle into anything. I felt discontent in my work, my social life and my spirituality. Nothing seemed to fit anymore. I’d feel inspiration around a new idea and the next day, it would slip away.  I couldn’t follow through with any of the ideas that seemed brilliant just a few hours ago.

Oh, I fought it! I made myself create classes or write essays that never got any traction. Instead of making me feel better, I felt not only discontent, but also felt like a failure. None of the seeds I planted sprouted. Quite honestly, I wondered if I’d just lost it. “It” being my creativity and inspiration.

Somewhere in December, I gave up. I ran out of oomph. I slept, I rested, I hid in my room. I watched TV. Then I got bored.

I have little tolerance for boredom. The world is a marvelous, mysterious, magical place; there’s no excuse for being bored. On the rare occasions in my my life when I’ve gotten to boredom, I quickly went deep so I could really listen to what was going on and/or I changed my environment.

It was time to listen in a new way. What did I hear? You need rest, lots of it; surrender to it. It’s time to change both your inner landscape and your outer landscape. Listen to your body, it will lead the way.

I kept listening. I stopped pressuring myself to be productive. I stopped blaming/shaming myself for this spot I was in. I watched for what was showing up, but I no longer grabbed at things as if they were a life line. I swayed with what showed up to see how it felt and if it’s call would last. If I could move in tune with it for a while, I’d jump in. I felt rather like a young girl playing jump rope in the school yard. If I tensed up and put pressure on myself, I almost always tripped up as I stepped into the swinging rope. If I gave myself a moment to get in tune with the rhythm of the rope’s swing, I’d move into it with grace and could jump for a long time without getting tangled up.

Now here I am in late March, looking back at the last six months or so and seeing it with new eyes. So much change within and around me was happening. At the time, I saw myself as dried up with an inability to start anew. Now, I see that I was flooded with possibility; so much potential was flowing that I couldn’t get any traction. I was a flood plain inundated with new needs and new ways. Instead of waiting for the waters to recede, I kept trying to plant seeds and getting frustrated that nothing took root.

The waters did recede. I’m seeing the incredibly fertile and fecund ground now being revealed. I could plant lots of seeds that would take root and flourish. I could feed millions.

Yet, what truly calls me is the river bed. I find that I have become the water rather than the farmer wanting to plant seeds. What calls me is somewhere down stream. I feel a delicious bubbling anticipation as I find the channel that will take me there.

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I treasure the time I spent slowly flowing over the flood plain; I moved through a lot of things and left a lot behind. In listening deeply, I heard the song of the river and am now able to jump into it’s deeper channel and dance my way around the river’s bend to …

I know I’m not the only one who has been challenged to flow differently in my life. I welcome your comments, your stories and any questions. How is your landscape changing?

Blessings to you and whatever you follow or plant.  ~ Coleen

Coleen Rhalena Renee is a storyteller, way shower and gifted spiritual healer. She helpstalking to the elements clients find their true heart story and teaches them to live well within it. Tap into your dreams and make them realities.

Find out more about Coleen’s work.  Ask for a free 15 minute consult.

 

#IPromiseMe – Can We Really Change Our Story? Part 2

Hi,

I recently did a presentation around the power of story and had it video taped. This is the second clip and I even sing an original song for the group.

Emotion along with the “aha” moments are wonderful transformers. I’m truly grateful for this one in my life. Don’t waste your aha’s. Invest in yourself and create a story you really like living.

~ Coleen

Coleen Rhalena Renee is a storyteller, way shower and gifted spiritual healer. She helps clients find their true heart story and teaches them to live well within it. Tap into your dreams and make them realities.

Find out more about Coleen’s work.  Ask for a free 15 minute consult.

#IPromiseMe – Can We Really Change Our Story?

Hi,

I recently did a presentation around the power of story and had it video taped. So today I offer a video.  Enjoy!

What stories of yours are wanting to transform? Need and intention are great facilitators. Go for it!

~ Coleen

Coleen Rhalena Renee is a storyteller, way shower and gifted spiritual healer. She helps clients find their true heart story and teaches them to live well within it. Tap into your dreams and make them realities.

Find out more about Coleen’s work.  Ask for a free 15 minute consult.

#IPromiseMe: Treasured Ancestral Gifts

Throughout my life I’ve known things that I shouldn’t know. It’s not that I’m nosey. In fact, often I’d rather not know. There’ve been times when I didn’t act on things, because I couldn’t identify how I knew, so I didn’t trust the knowing.

Weird things have happened. I knew we were getting hamsters for Christmas. At age 12, I knew when my mother felt threatened by a visitor and knew what to do to diffuse the situation. As a grad student in anthropology I heard and saw the ancient ones root digging when my class went on a archaeological field trip. When I started as a massage student, I got pictures of people’s lives when I was massaging them. I knew when friends were pregnant. I knew who was on the other end of the phone before answering (pre cell phone times).

My mother had gifts, so I just ignored the weird, until I was working with a massage client one day. She was having a really tough time in life. As I was massaging her I received several messages. As usual, I noticed but did nothing – until I felt this prodding. An insistent voice said, “Tell her,” while it literally felt like someone was poking me. This continued until I finally told the client what I was seeing. She immediately burst into tears and ask me how I knew. I continued massaging as she told her story. By the end of the session, she was feeling much better.

I decided that if this was going to happen, I wanted to know what it was all about, how to control it and how to trust it. 25 years later, I’m still discovering and developing new aspects to these inherited gifts. Turns out, I inherited from both sides of my family: healing and dousing gifts from my father; working with elementals from my mother; psychic and intuitive gifts from both sides.

As I look back on my life I notice even more of these emerging gifts than I noticed as I was living them. I know what to look for now.

I have five siblings. One takes medication so she doesn’t “see things”; the rest will claim a bit of intuition, but either have not inherited the same mix that I have, or they have just never been inclined to work with them. It’s not really a subject that we talk about. Both of my parents denied their gifts or consciously limited them. They did not encourage my tendencies at all.

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So why have these gifts been so important in my life? It doesn’t really matter why. What matters is that I listened to the strength of their call and tended to these ancestral gifts as treasures. I recognized them as a guidepost in my life. I never felt truly myself until I started the journey to discover and develop them.

It’s a challenge to carry such gifts in our world. I’ve tried to set them aside and get a “real” job with a regular paycheck. I literally got sick every time I tried. The truth is that my life is easier, fuller and more joyful when I’m in alignment with these gifts. That’s how I know they’re a guidepost. I cannot weave my life without them.

I invite you to claim your inheritances – the ones that truly speak to who you are, theHead shot (2) ones that make your life better no matter what challenges they bring. These guideposts often represent lost gifts from the past that are now emerging – just when we really need them.  Blessings on your journey, ~ Coleen

Coleen Rhalena Renee is a storyteller, way shower and gifted spiritual healer. She helps clients find their true heart story and teaches them to live well within it. Tap into your dreams and make them realities.

Find out more about Coleen’s work.  Ask for a free 15 minute consult.

 

#IPromiseMe: A Harrowing Experience

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As a writer I love the art of word smithing and using original meanings of words to challenge today’s perspectives – to break things up, break them down or smooth them out. This brings us to the word, harrow – an implement consisting of a heavy frame set with teeth or tines that is dragged over plowed land to break up clods, remove weeds, and cover seed.

Most of us are far removed from the agricultural world these days and only know the word, harrowing, to describe a disturbing experience.

Enter Rose Harrow!

Oh, how she disturbed my ideas about who I am as a small business woman. She broke down my resistance to attending to dry business details. She removed the weedy myths that have kept me stymied – and, she tenderly covered new seeds of hope with compassion and creativity.

It was so disturbing – in really good ways! It freed up my ideas of how to do business.

I met Rose at the Women of Wisdom conference in Seattle this weekend. She taught a workshop entitled “Sacred Money Archetypes”. To tell you the truth, I was on a high after teaching my own workshop earlier in the day. It was mid afternoon and I really wanted to either bask in the after glow, or take a nap. I was not looking forward to feeling badly about not operating my business in the “right” way.

As you know, I’ve promised to take much better care of me. That includes supporting myself financially. I’ve not been very attentive to the business aspect of my work. I’ve felt out of my depth, inept and judged whenever I’ve attempted to boost my business savvy. I didn’t even remember signing up for Rose’s business workshop and I wanted to run.

However, I’d just taught a workshop encouraging women to be open to what was on the edges of their web and challenging them to jump the webs that no longer serve them. It was now a mere two hours later. It seemed cowardly to not model what I just taught.

There Rose was, dancing on my web. I opened my mind, grabbed a cup of coffee and listened. She immediately gave me (and the other 30 women in the workshop) permission to create a business model that worked for me. She then gave us allies, introducing us to eight different archetypes that affect our effectiveness in business.

I love archetypes! They live within each of us, informing our lives and offering different strategies. To identify and connect with these archetypes around money was well, harrowing. In just 2 hours, she smoothed out the field in which I have been attempting to grow and harvest my business.  I began to understand why I resisted the “usual” in business models. She helped us explore our strengths and support the places where we were weak. She gave us information, inspiration and creative encouragement.

I have work to do – seeds to plant, tend and nurture. But you know me … help me find a seasonal, earth centered approach and I’m in! I feel so happy to have a smoothed out field and new tools to do this work. I love knowing I can develop a plan that is not only doable, but exciting for me because it embraces who I am.

First steps: continue to connect with these sacred money archetypes; commit resources to learning the necessary tools; and stay open to what’s on the web. Thank you Rose! I anticipate quite a lovely harvest.

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It amazes me how making one promise to myself continues to open new paths and possibilities in so many aspects of my life. I experience moments of overwhelm and places where I have to stop and catch up with these new realities, which I’m holding space for. Even there, my promise to myself invites me to rest and take the time and space I need. I’m learning to truly celebrate the little steps without pressuring myself to make something big or impressive out of them. I’m finding more and more ease in my body as I navigate this new way of living my life.

I’m happy to share my personal story and the resources I’m finding along the way. I hope they bless your life in some way. ~ Coleen

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Coleen Rhalena Renee is a storyteller, way shower and gifted spiritual healer. She helps clients find their true heart story and teaches them to live well within it. Tap into your dreams and make them realities.

Find out more about Coleen’s work.  Ask for a free 15 minute consult.