Our Stories are Re-writing Themselves. Can you feel it?

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I’ve been feeling it in my very bones, in my cells – and most deliciously, in my heart. Honestly, for the last 9 months or so, it’s felt like I was closing my heart because I found my tolerance for certain things was ebbing fast. Thoughts around being nicer, more compassionate, more patient, more loving, …. would come up, but it was as if a river rushed in and carried them away as soon as they did. I spent a lot of time by myself because of it.

Now I see that I wasn’t closing or hardening my heart, I was emptying it of my old patterns of over responsibility that didn’t serve me or the world.

Are you feeling anything similar?

I didn’t seek out this change of heart or work to make it happen, it just evolved.

Having said that, I do acknowledge that I have been wanting, hungering for, waiting for a change that I could sense was hovering near the edge of my web. And for the first time in a very long time I sensed that there was nothing I could do to make it happen. Working “hard” at things is something else I just don’t seem to have much tolerance for anymore. What a relief that is! I’d been feeling so old and now I feel new energies and a delightful sense of vitality moving through me.

Do you find yourself letting go of “putting your nose to the grinding stone’? (What a terrible image that expression calls forth!)

Lorna Bevan of Hare in the Moon Astrology writes:
“… your soul clock is reminding you that it’s time. And isn’t it interesting , liberating yet strange to feel yourself transforming from the inside out without working on yourself? That’s right – you don’t need to do anything, or buy a self-help book or start a practice with rules or pay someone else to tell you what you need. Nothing is wrong, nothing is missing – this is what conscious evolution looks and feels like.”

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I feel uncertain moments as I navigate this new field, which asks me to use new tools. But it’s also exciting and I’m enjoying the possibilities.

What new possibilities are you discovering in your field?

 

 

Please – Like, share, follow, comment and forward to friends and colleagues. Head shot (2)I’m Coleen Rhalena Renee, spiritual healer and teacher. I appreciate you helping me pass along these insights, teachings and thoughts to ponder.  I’m deeply grateful to all my readers and thank you for your support and for the work you do to heal the world and celebrate its beauty. 

If you need assistance in walking your path visit my website and considering working with me, if what I offer resonates with you. Many blessings, ~ Coleen

 

Do You Appreciate the Joys of the Senses?

Mama Earth titillates us with sweet scented air; budding trees that break into blossom; the song of returning birds and mamas calling to their young; the feel of warm sun on our skin; and, the unforgettable taste of fresh greens.

The sensual nature of May goes on and on; the sweet smell of fresh cut grass, the pungent scent of freshly turned earth, the cool feel of this soil as you plant seeds, the neighborly sounds of the local Farmer’s Market, …

In Celtic tradition, May Day – or Beltane – is the beginning of summer. Summer Solstice is the height and midpoint of the summer season. May Day celebrates the increasing power of the sun and his ever growing ability to penetrate the earth in the sacred union that brings us life. The Maypole is seated deep into the earth and with dance and song, we weave our intentions and desires for the season ahead. Our ribbons of desire woven around the pole provide a visual symbol for what we hope to create and harvest.

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These days, most people don’t literally dance around the Maypole. However, we don’t resist the call of Mama Earth to come out and play. We find ourselves drawn to what’s happening all around us. Sap is rising in the trees – which gently blossom, promising us delicious fruit very soon. Enlivening energy rises also within us; love is in the air, hope blossoms, we find excuses to get out – even if that only means taking our laptop out on the deck or squeezing in a walk during lunch.

I invite you all to consciously and joyfully enter the dance of May. Stop and smell the lilacs, tulips, camellias. Gather the edible greens in your yard and truly let yourself notice how your body welcomes their fresh nutrients. Or, just pay attention when you rub lotion into your skin. Savor the first sip or tea or coffee in the morning. Go to a Farmer’s Market.

Beltane is traditionally celebrated on May 1st. Lunar Beltane is on April 29th this year, which is also the full moon in Scorpio. Scorpio also calls to our sensual natures. If you get a chance, dance in the moonlight and enjoy the sensation of a moon bath. (Moon bathing is pretty much the same as sun bathing open to the light and enjoy!)

May literally calls us to our senses. Answer the call and see what happens!

Please – Like, share, follow, comment and forward to friends and colleagues. I’m Coleen Head shotRhalena Renee  – a spiritual healer and teacher. I appreciate you helping me pass along these insights, teachings and thoughts to ponder.  I’m deeply grateful to all my readers and thank you for your support and for the work you do to heal the world and celebrate its beauty. 

If you need assistance in walking your path visit my website and considering working with me if what I offer resonates with you. Many blessings, ~ Coleen

My Undoing

I know I’m in good company these days as I feel like so much is falling apart in my life. I thank the Goddess that I’ve been here before; I know to look for the treasure. I also know to remind myself how I’ve always come through this sort of transformation feeling blessed and incredibly grateful. So even in the darkest moments, I find at least a sprinkle of trust in the process.

I got my We’Moon calendar in the mail this week. True to tradition, I immediately went to my year at a glance astrology page for my sun, moon and rising signs. I don’t rule my life from astrological info, but I do respect the patterns it shows me and truly appreciate the heads up for what energies might be moving through my life. It helps me prepare and is an incredibly helpful reference for those dark moments.

So much of what began last August is sprouting in these early months of 2018. I have been in crisis – a crisis of faith, of questioning my work path, of my relationship with my body, of my ideas of who I am and how I walk in the world.

My year at a glance:

  • Skeletons hiding in the family closet are waiting to be excavated, as are profound currents of intergenerational healing.
  • Revamp mental constructs that inhibit your expression of innate creative energy.
  • A call for all-out commitment and deep transformation, often through struggle and crisis.
  • Don’t get too serious about the work of Service.
  • Keep growing as you seek out what nurtures your innermost being and creative essence.
  • This is not a year to play it small, so dream big and sail forth.

While such directives might send one into a spin, or at least back to bed to cover their head – I admit to feeling an incredible sense of relief. I’m well into these tasks of transformation, which tells me I’m in alignment with my path and purpose. Or, in not so spiritual terms, there’s purpose in this shit storm.

This for me is a moment of joy and an opportunity to release doubt and fear. I haven’t been making things up, I haven’t been stewing in a spiral of self-sabotage. I am in an initiatory cycle. Initiation always involves challenges, doubts, fears, undoing. In the last couple weeks I’ve felt like a vessel with many cracks; I don’t seem to be able to hold anything for long.

Yet, I’ve experienced an equally strong sense that I am not broken. In fact, I’ve felt a compulsion to resist anything that hints at me being broken. I find myself thinking a lot

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about kaleidoscopes. I’ve always had a great fondness for them – always the same matrix, but so many expressions and perspectives.

The cracks feel like an invitation to release the matrix that is the kaleidoscope of my life: to let go of stories that were never mine; to release expectations and old dreams; to stand on the brink of nothingness; to rest until I’m ready to choose, with sacred discernment, the matrix for my new kaleidoscope.

This kind of clarity, these strong images that evoke such intense emotions in me, the affirmation from the stars that I’m in alignment – they tell me that I’ve made it through the darkest, most fierce part of the storm. I may be buffeted about by strong winds here and there, but dawn is breaking. This New Day , a song by Kelliannaspeaks to me of this moment in an initiatory cycle.

I’m so grateful to have been through this cycle enough times to know its nature and to know things will shift, are shifting. I’m also grateful to be able to articulate it so that I can share with you the certainty of the cycle moving, as we collectively face such erratic change in our world.    ~ Blessings, Coleen

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Struggling, and then WOW!

Most of us have probably been there. We’re stuck in the middle of trying to figure things out. It’s an impasse. I can’t do this until that happens – and that can’t happen until this does. It’s a chicken or egg conundrum – frustrating at best. But then, …

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You hear a comment from someone at a coffee shop; you read a book or see a movie; a friend looks at you as if you’re quite dense and points to an obvious solution; the stars shift; or perhaps, you have a dream. Suddenly, the answer lands in your lap and you do a happy dance.

Yesterday, I did my happy dance.  You see, I’ve been trying to figure out how to meet the needs of my clients and continue my commitment to writing. When I’m writing and when I’m with clients, I’m in my happy place. There’s a little more to it however – there’s the carving out time and space for each, as well as the business end of marketing. (I’m almost 60 and social media is a sharp learning curve.) These could be three full time jobs. I’ve done that it the past, but have committed to having a life – a personal life playing cards, having tea with friends, cooking, gardening, walking the land.

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How did I get to my happy dance? I’m going to give most of the credit for my WOW to Eclipse energies. As promised, they have cleared away several blocks and cleared a path for my next stage of evolution. The theme? It doesn’t have to be hard.

I took a deep breath and made a commitment to step out of resistance and open to the generosity of our abundant universe.

Step 1 – School myself on social media and stop doing a bird shot approach, hoping something will land. I decided to start small and pull some science into it in order to give me a sense of control. I wanted to be able to measure results. I’m most familiar with Facebook, so that where I began. Turns out all the time and effort I was making to create regular, content-rich posts was counter productive. 8 seconds is the average attention span to engage someone. Part of me is appalled by that statistic, but mostly I felt an incredible sense of relief. I’d been trying to create a several course meal, when folks were looking for a quick snack. Photos, intriguing questions and Facebook Live – with links to more in depth content for those who want more. It just makes plain good sense. There’s more to learn, but I’ve got a good start and am seeing results. You can find my Facebook page here – I hope you “Like” it. You can find me live on Tuesdays at Two (PST) starting in September.

Step 2 – Find a creative way to see clients in many locations across the state. I’ve moved around a bit in the last couple years for work and family. I have clients in Pierce, Snohomish, King, Kittitas and Yakima counties. I do phone sessions, but sometimes clients just want to see you face to face. It’s not practical to have offices in 5 counties, so I’ve been meeting a few clients at their homes – which is a lot of travel. Recently, I met clients in the Everett area for a session, but they asked if we could meet at a coffee shop. I agreed, hoping it wouldn’t be odd or too challenging. It was lovely! I experienced the same joy and magic that I usually do when I’m working with clients and their guides. Bonus: the coffee was fantastic, AND the incident served as inspiration!

No longer in resistance around social media, I was in the flow. That flow of creativity wound its way into the question of how to see clients without burdening myself with lots of office locations.

I got serious – with colored pens, paper and focused attention – I was determined to find answers. I was at it for a couple hours when something happened. These words floated in front of me: Cafe Coaching. Seriously, I was mind mapping like a mad woman and the words floated down. I brushed them away like an annoying fly. A few minutes later, they floated in on a breeze – Cafe Coaching.  I let them float by and worked on connecting ideas from the papers in front of me. Cafe Coaching – there it was again. Finally, I wrote it down on the mind map.

Huh? Cafe Coaching – that’s an interesting idea. Now that it had landed, I saw its brilliance. Go once a month (maybe more) to my favorite cafe or coffee or tea house and work with clients for a few hours. Not only does this put me in front of clients, I also get to be in my favorite places where I so often write. The change of scenery and the people always inspire something. I’m still working out the details. Follow what happens with this and other interesting events via my newsletter.

The alchemy of the Eclipse energies, incidental experiences, asking the guides for assistance and dreams have converged into a wonderfully juicy and inspiring time. I feel alive in ways I haven’t for a long time. First, I had to step out of resistance. Now, I’m pretty sure nothing can stop me. I’m steering my canoe down my river and having a great time.

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The above photos are from a SoulCollage session I did several weeks ago. I like to think they were clues – and a message that I just had to catch up with myself. Allowing flow in one little area creates such joy and magic!  May it be yours. ~ Lena