What Do You Want? 3 Ways to Listen to Your Heart

Last weekend, on three separate occasions, I was asked, “What do you want?” In each case, it was conversational, but I have this agreement about three times. When Spirit wants to get my attention, I’m offered something three times. And I acknowledge that each time the question was asked last weekend, I could feel something powerful beneath it. I couldn’t just give a flip or casual answer. I actually got tongue tied, which is unusual for me.

After the social events of the weekend and my house guests left, I asked myself, “What do you want?” In my experience there are three things one must do with a question like this.

#1 Get Quiet. Questions that have a tug and seem to twinkle with power must be considered in a place of quiet. For me, that means going to my room, going out to a quiet place on the land, or taking a long drive through a beautiful landscape. Phone is off, to-do list is put away. I ask the question and simply listen to who/what wants my attention.

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I often receive guides to help me: an eagle flying next to me on the road; a river singing me songs of healing; an ancestor or angel whispering wisdom. Whether I’m half dreaming in my room, wading in a river, or speeding along on the road, much is happening around me. Some of it speaks to my question, some doesn’t.

#2 Notice What Has a ChargeAs I consider my question, I do so with a sense of detachment. I use a soft focus and very wide periphery (wide angle vision) that allows me to sense a lot. My task is to notice what has a charge; what shines, tingles, vibrates interestingly,… It’s like when a friend gives you a choice of three movies to go see. As he list the movies, you hear each title. And if you listen closely, you can hear which one(s) he truly wants to see because he speaks those titles with a little something extra in his voice – a charge. He might say it a little softer, louder, faster,… Something about it stands out and gets your attention.

I might see dozens of birds on my journey, but only one, the eagle, seems to connect with me, as if giving me a message. Lots of scenes and stories might flit through my mind, but something about Auntie’s words on her front porch swing when I was five seem to echo in my head. Many side roads might appear on my journey, but I only take the ones that I can feel pulling at my solar plexus. Everything else on my quest may be beautiful, something to explore for another day even, but I only attend to what has a charge.

#3 Be Patient and Don’t Grasp at Answers. I’ve asked my question, gone to a quiet place and noticed what has a charge. It can be quite tempting now to try to just make a meal out of whatever I’ve gathered. But I know from experience, it is best to simply be patient and wait for the alchemy to happen. A question like this might take days, weeks, months, even years to answer. Sometimes I go for a drive and come home with an answer. More often, I receive important guidance, messages, insights and possibilities, but no real answer. These kinds of questions are not for the microwave, they’re more the crock pot kind of meal. These questions need to be carried for awhile until something settles firmly in your place of knowing.

Too often, we ask questions and only listen to our head. We ask them with the pressure of getting it right, or at least answering quickly. To take action on such answers is usually a waste of time and resources.

These questions must be taken to our hearts; that’s where the wisdom lies. The heart understands that without the pressure of performing or hurrying – a deeper, more true and significantly more satisfying answer will emerge – and it will do so in right timing.

Do I have an answer? I have the beginning of an answer. In the quiet, I noticed how many things in my life are just noise: busywork, other people’s expectations, my fears and doubts. I’ve cleared much of that away, creating space for what I want to land. A client shared that she’s tired of trying to impress and of people trying to impress her; she just wants to know who people are and what they’re doing. When she said this, I felt a cleansing wind move through and blow away all the pressure I’ve been feeling lately to create sound bites and marketing platforms. And then it happened.

I came to understand the question in a new way. I have spent over two decades asking what the world wants from me and willingly offering my gifts and talents to that need.  It worked. But it really doesn’t sustain me anymore. Now, I must ask, “What do I want?”

My answer is that when I find the answer, I will magnetize the work and people that resonate with what makes my heart happy. Yeah, that’s what I want! I can feel my heart’s truth emerging. I also feel an incredible trust growing; a trust that when I’m in deep resonance with what I want, I will be offering what the world needs from me.


Please – Like, share, follow, comment and forward to friends and colleagues. I’m Coleen Rhalena Renee  – a spiritual healer and teacher. I appreciate you helping me pass along these insights, teachings and thoughts to ponder.  I’m deeply grateful to all my readers and thank you for your support and for the work you do to heal the world and celebrate its beauty. 

If you need assistance in walking your path visit my website and considering working with me if what I offer resonates with you. Many blessings, ~ Coleen

Do I Have the Courage?

I’m on the precipice. There’s no going back; the joy has left that path and I just feel bored when I consider staying put. My toes are gripping the edge of the cliff. But I have no idea what it is that I’m jumping into. It calls me, but ….Do I have the courage to jump?

I’ve been sitting with this question for a couple of days. I’ve been beating myself up for lacking the courage I think I need. But I just can’t move. My calves are cramping, but still I teeter. This question seems to just keep me stuck.

As soon as I hear myself say the word stuck, it occurs to me that I’m asking an unworthy question. (See earlier post on The Unworthy Question.) I step back from that teetering edge and consider what is going on. The situation feels ambiguous. I’m not really sure what it is that I need to leave. I love working with private clients. I enjoy writing. I’m even feeling intrigued with learning about effective use of social media. Yet, something is off. I feel bored with myself, with my life.

Something is calling me. I can feel it, hear it. It draws me – but I don’t know what it is. I just feel that I need it. But maybe I’m wrong.  Do I have the courage to jump anyway?

Ding, ding, ding! Of course I’m teetering; I’m asking a question full of doubt.

I trust myself enough to trust my knowing that I need to jump. The question I need is: Where do I find the courage? Yes, that feels better. This question infers that I will find the courage, even if I don’t know where. This question just makes plain good sense. I relax and open to possibilities.

I decide to check my emails. My friend, Suzy Wenger, is traveling in Ireland and has sent me a photo from the Cliffs of Moher.

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Cliffs of Moher, Ireland – Photo by Suzy Wenger

I feel transported and intrigued by the mysterious caves, rock formations and the water itself. I want to stand on top of the cliffs and dive. I imagine doing so: the wind blowing through my hair, the freedom of the fall, the welcoming waves, all the possibilities to explore. Yes, I feel fear too. But the mystery calls me more fiercely than the voice of fear; louder than my science brain that tells me there are rocks below the water and that the water is freezing.

Where do I find the courage to jump? In the mystery, I find it in the mystery – right next to adventure, curiosity and wings – my wings. It’s simply time to fly.  I no longer need courage, I just need to remember that I have wings – and that the mystery holds magic. Who’d have guessed I’d find all that in a photo – minutes after I found the worthy question.

Wanna know where my wings are taking me? Me too. I’ll share it in my next post.
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Preening my wings in preparation for flight, ~ Lena

Struggling, and then WOW!

Most of us have probably been there. We’re stuck in the middle of trying to figure things out. It’s an impasse. I can’t do this until that happens – and that can’t happen until this does. It’s a chicken or egg conundrum – frustrating at best. But then, …


You hear a comment from someone at a coffee shop; you read a book or see a movie; a friend looks at you as if you’re quite dense and points to an obvious solution; the stars shift; or perhaps, you have a dream. Suddenly, the answer lands in your lap and you do a happy dance.

Yesterday, I did my happy dance.  You see, I’ve been trying to figure out how to meet the needs of my clients and continue my commitment to writing. When I’m writing and when I’m with clients, I’m in my happy place. There’s a little more to it however – there’s the carving out time and space for each, as well as the business end of marketing. (I’m almost 60 and social media is a sharp learning curve.) These could be three full time jobs. I’ve done that it the past, but have committed to having a life – a personal life playing cards, having tea with friends, cooking, gardening, walking the land.


How did I get to my happy dance? I’m going to give most of the credit for my WOW to Eclipse energies. As promised, they have cleared away several blocks and cleared a path for my next stage of evolution. The theme? It doesn’t have to be hard.

I took a deep breath and made a commitment to step out of resistance and open to the generosity of our abundant universe.

Step 1 – School myself on social media and stop doing a bird shot approach, hoping something will land. I decided to start small and pull some science into it in order to give me a sense of control. I wanted to be able to measure results. I’m most familiar with Facebook, so that where I began. Turns out all the time and effort I was making to create regular, content-rich posts was counter productive. 8 seconds is the average attention span to engage someone. Part of me is appalled by that statistic, but mostly I felt an incredible sense of relief. I’d been trying to create a several course meal, when folks were looking for a quick snack. Photos, intriguing questions and Facebook Live – with links to more in depth content for those who want more. It just makes plain good sense. There’s more to learn, but I’ve got a good start and am seeing results. You can find my Facebook page here – I hope you “Like” it. You can find me live on Tuesdays at Two (PST) starting in September.

Step 2 – Find a creative way to see clients in many locations across the state. I’ve moved around a bit in the last couple years for work and family. I have clients in Pierce, Snohomish, King, Kittitas and Yakima counties. I do phone sessions, but sometimes clients just want to see you face to face. It’s not practical to have offices in 5 counties, so I’ve been meeting a few clients at their homes – which is a lot of travel. Recently, I met clients in the Everett area for a session, but they asked if we could meet at a coffee shop. I agreed, hoping it wouldn’t be odd or too challenging. It was lovely! I experienced the same joy and magic that I usually do when I’m working with clients and their guides. Bonus: the coffee was fantastic, AND the incident served as inspiration!

No longer in resistance around social media, I was in the flow. That flow of creativity wound its way into the question of how to see clients without burdening myself with lots of office locations.

I got serious – with colored pens, paper and focused attention – I was determined to find answers. I was at it for a couple hours when something happened. These words floated in front of me: Cafe Coaching. Seriously, I was mind mapping like a mad woman and the words floated down. I brushed them away like an annoying fly. A few minutes later, they floated in on a breeze – Cafe Coaching.  I let them float by and worked on connecting ideas from the papers in front of me. Cafe Coaching – there it was again. Finally, I wrote it down on the mind map.

Huh? Cafe Coaching – that’s an interesting idea. Now that it had landed, I saw its brilliance. Go once a month (maybe more) to my favorite cafe or coffee or tea house and work with clients for a few hours. Not only does this put me in front of clients, I also get to be in my favorite places where I so often write. The change of scenery and the people always inspire something. I’m still working out the details. Follow what happens with this and other interesting events via my newsletter.

The alchemy of the Eclipse energies, incidental experiences, asking the guides for assistance and dreams have converged into a wonderfully juicy and inspiring time. I feel alive in ways I haven’t for a long time. First, I had to step out of resistance. Now, I’m pretty sure nothing can stop me. I’m steering my canoe down my river and having a great time.


The above photos are from a SoulCollage session I did several weeks ago. I like to think they were clues – and a message that I just had to catch up with myself. Allowing flow in one little area creates such joy and magic!  May it be yours. ~ Lena

Past Life Intrigue

When I first started doing bodywork – massage in those early years – I would never have guessed that I’d be working with past life issues and the intrigue they can bring. It first happened when a client on my table started talking about her relationship with her mother. As we continued working, she started talking about memories from the Amazon  and Europe during the Renaissance. As she talked, I noticed her facial features seemed to morph.

The body stores memories, you see. Often, when I’m working on someone memories of childhood, past loves, traumas, … will suddenly pop into their heads. They’re almost always high emotion events. While I’m working on the physical tissues, the memories they hold are accessed.

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The Unworthy Question

I”m doing an Angel reading for a client and am in the flow of it. For me, that often feels like a conversation where two of the people are talking at the same time. The angels often answer a question as it’s being asked – and at times, they begin giving me new info as I’m relaying their last message. So to experience a silence when the client asks a question is rather unusual.

I wait. But their silence isn’t passive, it feels to me as if the Angels have withdrawn. It’s subtle, but it’s there. It’s like when you ask folks a question they don’t want to answer Continue reading